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so my "home life" is amazing and i couldnt ask for anything better. But my social life apparently died and im a ...whore. but thats okay because i guess i dont NEED friends if all they ever talk about is ME anyway. right? wrong. i need friends. but why doesnt ANYONE in columbus have anything better to do than to talk about other people? do they feel better about themselves? do they feel good when they make other people feel lower than shit? what is this about? and does it change as the places and faces change? or is every city just another 'columbus' with different surroundings and groups of friends? when do we actually stop feeling the need to make other peoples life a living hell? and when do we grow up? i feel like ive matured personally but i cant be too sure about the people that have been a part of my life. why do we lose contact and closeness with the people that understand us best? why do people grow apart? and do you ever mend those broken bridges? or do you continually wish for an old friendship you can't get back? does wishing for old friends change how you look at new friends? why dont i know the answers to these questions? does anyone know? does anyone even think about this stuff? or am i truly losing it? i need some guidance. i need some honest friends. i need some heart to hearts with old friends. i just feel like i ...need. as good as my life is, i feel like im missing out on a very important part of it. if anyone has any real thoughts on this matter, let me know. i feel all alone. and to all the good friends i have had in my life: i never forgot you. 3 very important people helped shape who i am today. i truly hope you know who you are.
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| Writer's Block: Wedding bells are ringing |
[18 Jul 2007|10:35pm] |
What was the last wedding you went to? Were you in the wedding?
The last wedding i went to was scott's brother's. I was a bridesmaid. obviously i have nothing interesting to say..lol.
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[04 Apr 2007|09:55pm] |
im so fucking sick of stupid fights. and stupid drama. and stupid people. Does ANYONE know the meaning of the word "friend"?! wtf is so bad about actually being someone's friend? and i dont mean using them for things they have or have access to. i mean being there to talk and laugh and cry and scream and hug and make memories with.
steph- i missed you like crazy and im SO glad that even though we forgot about court, that you didnt end up in jail today. getting drunk= YES! i needed it even if i didnt really NEED it. i miss you and im probably swooping you up in point five.
michelle- you are the only one thats actually been here for me lately. everyone else couldnt care less. but thats okay because we understand each other. and i like that much more than being used. im so glad that we're friends and even though scott and nick are gone, i know we can make it. i love living with you even if "The Warehouse" is a piece of shit. youre my sunshine and you make the world go round.
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| SOMETHING..to pass the TIME. |
[08 Jun 2006|12:37pm] |
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| Finish the sentence.. [61] | | i feel: | lonely | | i want: | food | | i am making: | too many survey things | | i am wearing: | pajamas | | i am trying to decide: | whether to shower now or later | | my best friend is: | scott | | my favorite memory is: | too many to choose from | | my worst memory is: | ive got a couple | | my favorite vacation place is: | um...never really been on vacation | | i am: | pregnant | | i want to be: | older | | i try to hard to: | understand everything | | my fear is: | not knowing | | my hopes are: | to reach the sky | | when i get older, i: | want to conquer the world | | i look: | tired..and pregnant. | | i enjoy: | food | | i HATE: | being confused | | one thing/person i love is: | scott | | when i fall for someone, i: | fall hard | | my favorite color is: | yellow | | my favorite television show is: | um..not much tv watching for me | | a person i adore is: | joseph brashears | | a place i would go in a heartbeat is: | elizabethtown | | the person that i'm thinking about is: | sadie | | i love the way: | i used to be | | a vexation of mine is: | a what? | | my favorite time is: | now | | summer time is: | hot | | my life is: | right now its boring.. | | after school, i: | sleep | | i am a: | robot | | one thing i can't live without is: | food | | i: | love HIM. | | i'm trying to: | be happy | | it hurts when: | the baby moves | | like my father always says;: | nothing | | the hardest thing i've ever had to do was: | talk | | i NEED: | to go somewhere and have fun | | before i go to bed, i: | kiss someone special | | the first thing i do in the morning is: | wake up.. | | the best thing about life: | is everything | | i never knew that: | i would be a mother at sixteen | | my lucky number is: | 4 | | my room is: | his room, too. | | i can't: | get my foot to wake up. | | i love going to: | the park. | | i cry when: | i think. or speak. or listen. | | something that makes me smile is: | you. | | it's: | a song | | i love the movie: | harriet the spy | | this survey is: | making me realize | | i am feeling: | my back ache | | love is: | amazing | | traveling is: | overrated | | whores are: | lonely | | it is time to: | get away from the computer | | i am wearing: | pajamas | | i'm pissed off because: | i was already asked that question | | something about a person that turns me on is: | he is the only one im interested in. | Take this survey | Find more surveys
You've been totally Bzoink*d |
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[08 Jun 2006|11:12am] |
23 weeks and 5 days.
I've been pregnant a long time.
And it's decided..the kid doesn't want to leave. It's not coming out. I know it won't. It's gonna stay in there forever and my stomache will be forever giant. AND-i keep crying for no reason. It's like anything can make me burst. And i don't even know its coming. It just happens. And...im really confused. I need someone to talk to. But i wouldnt know what to say anyway. Everything inside me is so...mixed up. Its like i feel EVERYTHING at once. and all the emotions are 100x stronger. I'm so frustrated.
Went to the doctor on 6/6/06. Perfect. I knew something was going to happen. But nothing did. Except we still don't know what we're having. This kid likes to joke around a lot. Or something. Because I was already a month overdue to find out the sex. And then it wouldnt open its legs..now im going to be seven months pregnant before i know whats in there. I am dying from anticipation. I NEED to know.
I sound really sad or something. I read back through this, and i'm excited even though it doesn't seem like it. My feelings are just...ugh. But i really can't wait. ♥
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[31 Mar 2006|11:30am] |
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i was going to put a heart...but this massive headache does NOT deserve a heart.
i feel blah right now.
this is the worst friday so far.
hopefully it gets better.
Scott's a preferred customer--at the adult bookstore.
Apparently, he has his own section which reads "For Scott Only".
niiice.
♥
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[09 Sep 2005|05:25pm] |
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reminder to me: print out paper for that KID. ♥
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[23 Aug 2005|06:33pm] |
1. Reply with your name and I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal. You MUST.
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[09 Aug 2005|02:22pm] |
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Okay so the day has barely started and already i have learned two valuable things.
one: a new word. BullPussy...said like this BUUUUUUUUUULLPUUSSY.
two: Sadies mom said Dairy Queen thought i was loose.
Bree: i wish my food came in a box. My cheeseburger's slidin around.
Sadie's mom: now you know what Dairy Queen thinks about you......YOU'RE LOOSE!
so babysitting at Brian's tonight with Darla.
"I got sunshine in a bag Im useless but not for long the future is comin on"
gawddamn it shadie
"i really need to shave my armpits...they're really itchy."
"i found my aaron carter cd....and now three!"
♥ sadie
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[17 Jul 2005|02:31am] |
i was about ready to go find that fucking old man
dont say the word fuck around me right now
god damn it justin....gosh
my legggggg..
i swear im not gay...well maybe
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| gumbo |
[12 Jul 2005|02:21pm] |
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okay...havent updated since the last time i wasnt in trouble...long long time ago yeah?
so the fun just keeps on comin now. sadie and i are one again. good times good times. I missed you my love. justice...i saw you..lol..i love you buuuudy.. miss you..
so long distance things are happening...to everyone..tyler and jayson are coming..soooon...fuun..maybe? going to the fair tomorrow if the stupid rain doesnt ....happen. i love you sadie. remember the kid that said he didnt have tickets..and did? that cutter...
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